good karma .. thanks

a lot of people think that when something goes wrong in their life, even if it is a very small mishap, it is immediately taken as bad karma. but how come when good things happen to us, we regard it as if it was nothing. you never did consider it otherwise? a good karma, maybe? a last seat on a shuttle, rain pouring immediately after you've gone inside, remaining piece of the cake you've been craving since this morning, arriving to your destination safe & sound, always having loose change, talks you your friends have been having, flowers you receive, waking up everyday able to see, being kissed, saw a perfect sunset, and many other things. if a few of these have happened to you then you must have done something good ü.

there are some episodes in oprah where they encouraged everyone to have a thank you notebook and at the end of the day you will list all the things you are thankful for. why do this you ask? in my opinion if you do this, sometime soon, read it, you'll realize how so much blessed you are. but you dont have to always carry with you a pad to write those you are grateful of. you could just tell it to someone above, he'll be glad you noticed.

so have you said thank you lately, for even as small as a smile given to you? i did ü

weekend (20050618-19) mood

warning : so much non-sense. move on ...

i get easily irritated especially if it doesnt suit my plans. i dont know why (sabay kamot ng ulo). sa pagkakaalam ko malayo pa naman ako sa tinatawag na menopause. madali ako mag-snap, late na bago napipigilan, bago pa naiisip. napapa-isip nga ako minsan if i need therapy, kaya lang maliban sa mahal cguro bayad dun, others will think that something is wrong with you because it is unlikely in our culture to just see a therapist. even the word therapy makes ones eyebrow raised. sometimes i dont want to go out of my room so as not to upset anybody with my complex mood. so i usually sleep it off. speaking of sleeping, that is one of the things i like to do most. sa iba too much sleep gives them a headache, luckily i dont get headaches due to oversleeping so i do it as much as i can. wala lang just rambling. sbi ko sayo eh, walang kwenta 'to.

kelan kaya ...

madami akong tanong sa sarili ko .. but thanks to a friend of mine, natanong nya ako kung ano yun mga yun.

Kelan kaya ...

... magkakaroon ng bahay na matatawag kong akin
... makakapunta sa lahat ng mga lugar na gusto kong puntahan (madami eh .. ito ang iba sa list >> Davao, Pagudpod, EL Nido, Japan, Italy, Paris, America, Australia, South America, at madami pang iba)
... makaka-own ng beachfront rest house
... matatapos ang pag-iisip ko kung sino ang pupunta sa wake ko
... di na ako magiging morbid .. hehehe
... titigil ang madami sa ibang recurring dreams ko
... makakahiligan ang pagbabasa ng newspaper
... magbabago ang project na hawak ko [ UB support for life!!! =( ] [ nagbago nga ng project pero same pa din ng client .. hehehe .. dapat yata ang ni-request ko ay bagong client .. bwahahahaha! ]
... mawawala ang pollution
... lilinis ang politics at talagang masasabing para sa tao talaga
... titino ang government officials na may topak.
... susunod ang mga tao sa laws laid for them
... matututong mag-drive outside subdivision
... makakasakay sa hot air balloon, yacht, cruise liner, jet, super bike
... maibibigay sa parents ko ang lahat ng luho na gusto kong maibigay sa kanila
... makakaranas ng love na masasabi mong ito na yun
... tatangkad pa .. hahaha
... papayat din =P
... makakakita ng perfect sunset
... makakapagsalita ng ibang language maliban sa filipino at english (Italian, french, japanese)
... makakatanggap ng bouquet of flowers (di yung gumamela at santan ha .. yung yellow roses or tulips naman =D) [ someone gave me 2 yellow roses & lots of tulips in a flower arrangment with other flowers surrounding it, sept 13 .. they are pretty nice ]
... magkakaroon ng lakas ng loob para mag-try ng ibang opportunities
... magtitiwala sa mga kakayahan na ipinagkaloob ni God (kung meron man .. kitams! swak ang item na ito sa topic!)
... makikita ng tao na di mataray, suplada or intimidating
... magiging fun and outgoing
... mao-overcome ang fear of public speaking
... magiging contented sa ano man ang meron ngayon
... may makikinig sa akin at papansin
... matatatak sa isipin na we should look past physical appearance and will not make judgement based on it
... mare-reach ang lahat ng goals ko for myself
... magiging unselfish lahat ng people
... magkakaroon ng peace sa mundo
... malalaman ang totoong purpose bakit ako andito
... magkakaroon ng fulfillment sa buhay
... mawawalan ng mga questions sa isip (malamang kapag di na gumagana)

... as of now wala na akong ibang maisip .. babalikan ko ito =) ...

ako? oc?

Sabi nila OC daw ako. In my opinion, I am not. My things are not always in order. Take my room, parang one big unorganized walk-in closet =P. Sabi nga ng mom ko gubat yun .. hehehe. Yun ba ang OC? Btw, for those who are confused already, OC means Obsessive Compulsive, sobrang gusto laging malinis at maayos ang mga gamit at paligid, gets irritated if something is not in its rightful place, may certain way on doing things that he/she follows, and some even have lists on everything ü.

I'll list why they probably say I am.

1. don’t like crooked forks.
2. kapag binubuksan ko ang chips at ibang food packaging, sa taas lagi, holding two sides of the center and pulling them away from each other. I don’t tear it thru the tear here label or cut with a pair of scissors diagonally, but if i do, dapat with smooth edges or at least clean walang piece of plastic protruding.
3. i tend to close objects that needs to be closed, like microwave, toaster, drawer, cabinet, & some other things.
4. keeping wall-hanged things, straightened & centered.
5. clothes na naka-hang are placed in my cabinet according to category (office attire, semi-office-casual attire, casual), style (long sleeves, polo, blouses, no sleeves, tshirts, pants, skirts) & color.
6. when setting things, e.g. on the table, sometimes needs to be accurate, with even spaces in between.
7. wear clothes in a round-robin manner (but sometimes naman i skip din, depende sa mood ko =P)

Yan lang maisip ko ngayon eh at ang aware ako. Lahat ng mga yan is to make my life easier, nice looking, and to prevent accidents (item#3).

Tatanungin ko kayo ulit, yun ba ang OC? Okay, okay .. fine! A little bit, sobrang mild OC na nga! You happy now? ... =P

unselfishness

this story is nice ..
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Little things, big differences
By Elizabeth Grisham
I have a strange habit of finding pennies wherever I go. I had been keeping them in a jar, just admiring my luck, but one day I was standing behind someone in a checkout line, and they came up short. I had just found a penny, just what they needed, so I gave it to them. It wasn't mine to begin with, so it only felt right to pay it forward. Now, rather than thinking of the pennies as signs of my luck, I think of them as signs of opportunities to help people. [ http://www.actsofkindness.org/inspiration/stories/index.asp ]
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I remember, a friend once told me, if all people are unselfish, this world would be a better place. I agree with him 100% =)